The last post on my blog was one-year ago, just about the
time when the bride and I were working on having a baby the alternative way via
IVF. I won’t get into the details
of that, rather I’ll slightly tell you that the year brought forth many ups and
one major downer.
We got to see the beautifulness of the development of a
beautiful baby girl and then the world changed two months ago when we lost her
at 38.1 weeks gestational age.
Hell, we had never even considered a loss so great as that—couldn’t even
fathom that historic moment in our lives with the purchase of a larger vehicle
for our new family, setting up and having a baby shower, receiving gifts,
filling out thank-you cards.
Picking out the best furniture that would carry young Victoria Morgan
into her teenage years and possibly become her child’s furniture. It was made out of the best Maple the
industry had to offer—we were proud, it was better quality than our own bedroom
furniture. Infant car seats and
the stroller was the most difficult to choose. Then, her clothing… we had even picked out her winter
jacket, snow pants for the bi-annual family Christmas vacation this year to
Europe. Her room was completed in
two months and with the level of care and precision that Bob Vila would be
proud of.
With all the preparation, what parents would even consider a
possible loss, especially since all the doctors and nurses stated, that “all is
well,” “she’s growing on pace?” It
definitely didn’t cross our minds.
Then that one fateful Thursday morning in March brought forth a
different set of events. Victoria
was not moving like she normally does after breakfast and the stomach seemed a
bit low. One hour after the call
to Labor and Delivery, we were told that we lost her, she was without a beating
heart, “I’m sorry, she’s gone.”
“No, this can’t be!” 13.5
hours later, Baby Victoria was delivered in the minutes past midnight and for
four amazing hours, we held her. I
sit here at this computer, often scanning down to look at the framed photo of
her on this desk of mine and for two months considered and pondered a way to
finally voice this to the rest of the world. Here we are.
Merriam Webster defines Stillbirth as “the birth of a dead
fetus.” Others define it as “the
birth of an infant that has died in the womb after having survived through at
least the first 28 weeks of pregnancy.”
Well, according to our state, and the Federal Government, a Stillbirth
is beyond 20 weeks. At any rate, I
define Stillbirth as the loss of my daughter, Victoria Morgan. Because we’re Veterans and my bride is
still Active-Duty, we opted to have her buried in Arlington National
Cemetery—our future home. She’s
gone. Our memories of Victoria are
the movements after breakfast, the sound of music, and her gymnastics when it
was time for an ultrasound. Most
of all, the touch of her hand, her long hair, beautiful skin, and the features
of both of us embraced in our arms.
The only things that haven’t changed include her room… the
bag has never been emptied, the pillow that she laid upon and we took from the
hospital, still lies in the corner of her crib, everything in her room has
remained the same since coming home without her.
One of the few things that we have embraced in our hearts
next to Victoria is not only our immediate family but our military family. Whether virtual (via the
internet/email/social networks) or personal (at our doorstep), they were there
and it was immediate. Both
families were very vital to the immediate recovery in the hours, days and weeks
following Victoria’s passing.
Without them, I’m not quite sure how we would have held up. We are strong willed, and have
extremely strong personalities, but nothing could have prepared us or in my
mind, prepare anyone for this sort of loss.
With all this being said, I was quite shocked to see the
“traffic” and visits to this blog over the past year. I appreciate your viewership. I’m not quite sure where I will take my
blog now… I hope to come up with something worth reading. I also begin another blog beginning
today on an entirely different website this month, one that I will be monetarily
paid to accomplish and I am even at a greater loss of words and ideas for that
one, I thought I was ready. Maybe
I’ll update all of you on our progress and possible future with another attempt
at having a child. Until then,
Salute!
Commando, Royal Marine, David Charles Hart
Photo, Ministry of Defence, Great Britain
Why did this story lie dormant for nearly a year? Well, to the rest of the world, British, 40 Commando Royal Marines, David Charles Hart, was just another casualty of the War on Terrorism in Afghanistan. Yet, within the past 24 hours, his death made headlines on a global scale when it was disclosed that of the £250,000 ($400,000) insurance policy he took out before his departure to Afghanistan, in the case of his death, he directed that $150,000 of that amount pay for a Las Vegas trip for 32 of his friends. Well, one year later, and you know how insurance policies are, payment to his friends occurred.
Marine Hart, was part of Combined Force Sangin, killed while on foot patrol in the Sangin District of Helmand Province, Afghanistan. He passed the eve of his 24th birthday. Marine Hart joined the military in February of 2009 and was awarded the Commando Medal on 16 October 2009. Prior to his deployment to FOB Sabit Qadam and Patrol Base Sangin Tufann, he qualified as a combat medic, and was selected to become part of a newly formed Police Mentoring Team. Arriving in country in April of 2010, Marine Hart was quickly recognized as an outstanding professional in arms, his commanding officer, Major Ed Moorhouse, stated that "This wholesome, compassionate and thoughtful man was fiercely proud of his profession, of his Corps, Charlie Company and the Band of Brothers who he fought alongside.” In the early evening of of 08 July 2010, Marine Hart along with Charlie Company was conducting a joint reassurance patrol with the local Afghan Army and at approximately 1825hrs, an explosion occurred, killing Marine Hart.
It is without a doubt that first and foremost Marine David Hart was doing what he loved and accomplishing what he loved for the country he loved. His devotion to duty and sacrifice for his country is duly recognized and honored. The fact that this young man made a choice for his best friends, his fellow brethren in arms, is doubly without a doubt an outstanding showing of his character. Dilys and Chris Hart, his parents, said “His cheerfulness, his sense of humor and of course his smile will be sorely missed but never forgotten. We are immensely proud, as he was, of his achievements.” “He was a truly exceptional marine, a great bloke and a good friend, said Marine Gareth Wilkinson, part of Marine Hart’s troop.
"As his Troop Sergeant, I can say that he was an outstanding man to work alongside, totally professional and dedicated to his job and friends, of whom there are so many. Sadly when such a person is taken from us the void left behind is huge. We will always remember you Dave; you were the best of us, Rest in Peace my friend."
Sergeant Damian O'Sullivan, Troop Sergeant
Since this story broke just hours ago, the amount of respect this young man has earned here, across the pond, is incredible. The blogs, social networks, and threads alike are literally “blowing up” with respect and admiration for one, his sacrifice, and two his loyalty to his friends. Upon reading the story, I walked to the fridge of beer, cracked one or two open and toasted to this outstanding example of a man. May your sacrifice be noted and your love for family and friends be toasted… cheers David Hart.
(19 August 2012) Supposedly this knucklehead posted on Ron Paul's Facebook page recently (has since been removed) the following comment:
"Wounded Veteran and you Sir have my support Sir!! USAF brat & Flyer, RANGER, SF MEDIC, HALO JUMP MAster!! The VA claims that my PTSD is not a combat injury but a mental disorder; so I enlisted and have a TANGO SEIRA CLEARANCE AND I HAVE A MENTAL DISORDER?!! So I get my disability from social security!! I hate it Sir!!!
Nick " SKI " ANDROSKY
325-665-2902"
Yes, he posted his phone number.
Visit this page as well and it will give some current
Obviously standing at attention because he feels his life is in danger, Androsky forgot
to fix his tie.
Green, Blue, and Tan - Fashion Faux Pas
The blouse was getting extremely heavy for Androsky, and had to take a break.
Don't know why the dog looks happy - 2007 photo
I’m telling you, this is the largest bag of goppity goop, tard material I have ever seen. I just wish the guy took the time to straighten out his tie and/or after spending $300+ on the uniform and ribbons, at least get a $10 haircut. If someone would like to act as if they’ve served their country, at least spend a little time studying AFI 36-2903—desert boots are not authorized with the service dress uniform, only black, highly polished boots and you better be a PJ, Combat Rescue, SERE, or TACP.
Androsky has seriously embedded himself in the dumbass, what the f**k hall of fame. The fashion faux pas with the tan boots and wearing blue is something a rainbow in AF basic training would understand on day two--I really love how he gave the "Battle of Lackland Expeditionary Service Medal (AF training ribbon) such precedence that it is on the fourth row, "big mistake Nick." On the other hand, he didn't give two turds where he put ribbons on the 42 racks he's wearing, so I'll give him the Battle of Lackland Medal mistake.
Our nation has some serious issues in operations Enduring Freedom, New Dawn, and that fiasco in Libya--I honestly believe that with Nick's new found background and operational experience, he could either advise the President or just lead all three operations by himself and tell POTUS, "don't worry about it, I got it, as long as you hook me up with the Joint Service, DOD, AF Staff, Commander's, and White House Detail badges, thanks Barack!" Nick was so busy earning every single decoration and badge at Clothing Sales, that he forgot to hit up eBay for the Medal of Honor. Frankly though, if he was "sporting" the MOH, I think we would be talking about the four guys that whooped his ass and are up on manslaughter charges.
For the moment, Androsky has provided our close knit military family with enough fodder that would make a TCN laugh. I am really hoping he shows up in the DC area so that I can meet this hero, take photos with him, ask him a few questions and punch him in the throat on behalf of all the personnel that rightfully earned those sacred medals and badges and then I'll hook him up with the Girl and Boy Scout Badges at the local Pawn Shop for his collection. At the end of the day, I believe that the piss on Jane stickers I see at the VFW will soon be replaced with Androsky's photo and to answer my title, "Stolen Valor... Or Just Stupid," Stolen Valor, maybe on some level, but Stupidity, most definitely. Enough said, “RocK,” out.
Updates:
17 Jun 2011 - 2200 EST - I once wrote a story on here about the Stolen Valor Act… this guy (to the right and below), purportedly Mr. Give Me Another Badge, I Want Another, USAF MSgt Nickolas J. Androsky, showed up for a graduation ceremony at Fort Benning (Sand Hill), on Wed, 15 Jun 2011, wearing the uniform with 15 rows of awards and decorations, and 7 badges from the Army and Air Force. He was there to see his stepson graduate from training (I am unaware of type of training) and is married to a 54 year-old--Androsky is supposedly a 33-year old. Also, Androsky served in the the AF from 1999-2006, in the 41st Airlift Squadron and was discharged as an E-4. Upon arrival, Androsky reportedly complained to the unit leaders that he was disrespected by unit personnel and that is where Androsky found himself scrutinized. After questioning, the Benning MP's happily escorted him off base.
18 Jun 2011-1330 EST - His life in the past few days has forced him to take down his Facebook page. Let's hope he get's a clue and doesn't pull a stunt like this again.
19 Jun 2011 - 1305 EST - List of his Awards and Decorations below.
**I especially like the DOT Coast Guard 9-11 Medal that is backwards, awarded for recognition of civilians and military members who performed heroic deeds and valorous accomplishments in the immediate aftermath of the 11 Sept, 2001 attacks on the USA.
19 Jun 2011 - 1055 EST - Photo of Nick Androsky from 2007 above with his dog.
20 Jun 2011 - 2151 EST - I have emailed Mr. Androsky in hopes that "we" could get some clarification on this debacle. Standing By...
20 Jun 2011 - 0952 EST - So I keep looking around for more fodder on this guy, and from Shadowspear, the actual individual that spoke with MSgt Dufflebag states, "Last night at 1830 or so, I'm chewing over the boss's Concurrent TNG Guidance, when this guy - he wants to speak to the CSM about a DS disrespecting him...," Oh yes. This walked into my Battalion HQs, also wearing a Green Beret with his pants bloused into desert boots. Claims he was authorized everything he's wearing, and spent 8 years in USAF before being medically retired (you know, from wounds and all...). Notice the poopy-face; the outcome was not what he expected. He was given a free ride in the back on an MP patrol car."
22 Jun 2011 – 0810 EST – Androsky has not responded to my email but the following message was left here on the blog:
“I was stationed with the guy at Pope AFB from 2000-2006, he was discharged for illegal use of drugs, never even saw combat of had PTSD. Spent quite a while in jail at Camp Lejune before he was discharged and he was only an E-4 at his courtmartial, E-1 at his discharge.”
That explains it folks, Androsky was higher than an aerostat when he pulled this stunt.
Since this small comment, I did a little research and found information that is listed below. Nothing else concerning his case could be found and I am reluctant to assume whether he was court martialed and sentenced to jail and/or discharged either in 2004 or 2006. Androsky is listed on VetFriends that he was in the USAF between 1999-2006, yet if his case fell in the Court of Appeals in 2004, I would safely assume his discharge was conducted then or after a possible sentence ending in 2006. For sake of limiting the amount of text, I have excluded information. You are more than welcome to search both documents at the following: 09 Apr 2004 or 15 Jun 2004
UNITED STATES COURT OF APPEALS FOR THE ARMED FORCES
DAILY JOURNAL
No. 04-126
Friday, April 09, 2004
PETITIONS FOR GRANT OF REVIEW FILED
No. 04-0424/AF. U.S. v. Nickolas J. ANDROSKY. CCA S30343.
UNITED STATES COURT OF APPEALS FOR THE ARMED FORCES
DAILY JOURNAL
No. 04-169
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
ORDERS GRANTING PETITION FOR REVIEW
PETITIONS FOR GRANT OF REVIEW DENIED
No. 04-0424/AF. U.S. v. Nickolas J. ANDROSKY, CCA S30343
I spent some time, at the closest possible zoom, without distortion, looking at each individual medal/ribbon and comparing them to the many branches/charts that he picked from. I know for a fact, based on my experience at "military clothing sales" (AAFES), that one cannot purchase all of Androsky's decorations in one store. He must have spent some time on the many websites that proliferate honorable awards and decorations.
List of his Awards and Decorations, in the order he presents them.
Badges: 1. Air Force Enlisted Aircrew Badge, Master 2. Army Combat Infantryman Badge, 3 Awards 3. Military Freefall Parachutist Badge (HALO), Jumpmaster 4. Looks to be a Special Operations Diver 5. Parachutist Badge, Senior 6. Combat Medial Badge, 2 Awards 7. Air Assault Badge
Medals and Ribbons: 1. Silver Star 2. Air Force Combat Action Medal 3. Distinguished Flying Cross 4. Airman's Medal 5. Bronze Star with 2 Oak Leaf Clusters 6. Purple Heart 7. Air Force Meritorious Service Medal 8. Air Medal 9. Joint Service Commendation Medal 10. Joint Service Achievement Medal 11. Air Force Achievement Medal 12. Presidential Unit Citation 13. Air Force Expeditionary Service Ribbon 14. Unknown/Hidden 15. National Defense Service Medal 16. Antarctica Service Medal 17. Unknown/Hidden 18. Afghanistan Campaign Medal with 2 Campaign Stars 19. Iraq Campaign Medal with 2 Campaign Stars 20. Hidden/Unknown 21. Global War on Terrorism Expeditionary Medal with Campaign Star 22. DOT 9-11 Coast Guard Medal 23. Hidden/Unknown 24. Air Force Overseas Short Tour 25. Global War on Terrorism Service Medal 26. Air Force NCO PME Graduate Ribbon 27. Air Force Honor Graduate Ribbon 28. Air Force Marksmanship with 2 Stars 29. Unknown/Hidden 30. Air Force Training Ribbon 31. Army NCO Professional Development Ribbon 32. Unknown 33. Army Service Ribbon 34. Unknown 35. Armed Forces Service Medal 36. Humanitarian Service Medal 37. NATO Kosovo Medal 38. United Nations Observer 39. NATO Medal 40. NATO Non-Article 5: Afghanistan
09 Aug 2011 - 0747 EST From the folks over at This Ain't Hell, have uncovered some documents that reveal the "sickness" that many folks believe has caused Nick to perpetrate a Soldier, Airman, and a Coasty. At the end of the day, Nick is a Crackhead that has made some poor decisions and continues to make them today.
On 27 Sept 1996, a Memorial was dedicated on behalf of the 24 men that fatefully lost their lives aboard Aircraft 0354, Callsign Yukla 27, assigned to the 962 AACS. The memorial is surrounded by 24 Spruce trees, one for every member aboard the aircraft--their humanity. 24 bronze cast name plaques adorn the wall, one for each Airman--their professionalism. The E-3B AWACS replica is mounted in a climbing left hand turn, Yukla 27's takeoff that day--their mission. Both the U.S. and Canadian Flags are raised high--our nations share their loss. Yukla, from Tanaina Indian dialect meaning Eagle, the callsign of all Alaskan AWACS aircraft. ...He will lift them up and they will soar on wings like eagles.
Yukla 27 Memorial, Elmendorf AFB, AK
22 Sept 1995 will forever be remembered as a day of mourning for a tight-knit and very close community of family and aviators. That fateful morning, 24 men of the 962 AACS boarded an AWACS at Elemendorf AFB, AK for what should have been a “standard flight/mission.” Yet, shortly after V1 (point of no return on takeoff/takeoff decision speed), the starboard side engines suffered a catastrophic bird strike. Yukla 27 entered into a slow climb to the left and the aircraft impacted the hills approximately one mile from the departure end of the runway. All 24 crewmembers instantly perished.
The Air Force Accident Investigation Board concluded that the accident “was directly caused by the ingestion of geese into engines number one and two. Two other factors substantially contributed to the accident of which the 3d Wing Leadership lacked an aggressive program to detect and deter the geese—what is commonly known as Bird Air Strike Hazard Program (BASH) and that the Control Tower might have prevented the accident if “sound judgment” were used. Nevertheless, 15 years later, many remembered the event, the lives lost, and the great memories we all shared with those American and Canadian men.
Memories. How do you memorialize 24 men who inevitably paid America’s and Canada’s Ultimate Sacrifice? Sure, memorials have been created there and abroad, but it’s the thoughts, prayers, and words that people write in their honor. I find it amazing that 15 years post-accident, the memories are as clear as what I did 5 minutes ago. We all recall where we were at the moment we received the news of the accident and the special moments shared with each one of those men. Some call them "heroes or patriots," in the end though, they are sons, brothers, fathers, friends and most of all God's men. If you noticed, I do not use the past tense--regardless of living or deceased, you are still each one of those, especially to the families of those men. They never become "he was my son, he was my brother, he was my father, or he was my friend." They are and always will be in the present. They still live. They live in our hearts and our memories, they never left us.
Below are excerpts of those “memories” taken from around the web (There are quite a few). Before I begin to list the “memories,” please say a prayer to those families who also suffered losses in the aftermath of the "Sitka 43" C-17 accident that occurred 28 July 10. Four Airmen perished doing what they loved most—it is rumored that the crew crashed near Yukla 27’s accident site.
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I was flying a mission with NATO AWACS the day this happened and our RO tuned in BBC when the crew we were relieving on station in the Adriatic asked us if we had heard anything. Our whole crew listened for hours as BBC started broadcasting information as they received it. I knew several of the crew and will never forget them!!
To my brother Steve.....thinking of you....miss you and love you always......so hard to believe that it has been 15 years now....you are always in our hearts.....
~LTW, 22 Sept 10
Thank you for starting this page. I also located it during a search as the anniversary approaches. My brother, SSGT. Scott Bresson, was lost to us that day, but lives always in our memories, deeply loved and painfully missed.
~SH, 14 Sept 10
Every time I make peanut butter cookies I think of BK asking me to bring more of them in to work the next day, he said they were the best ones he ever ate.
~CCH, 22 Sept 10
I still miss Chuck, Scott, and all the guys so very much......tough memories.
~RBH, 09 Jan 10
I was TDY to Tinker for the flight manuals review conference when it happened. The week before, Mark Collins had asked me to go in his place so he could be in town for some family that were coming to town. I miss them all, but I think of Mark most. I wish I still had his guidance today.
~CG, 27 Sept 09
At 0747 this morning, please remember Yukla 27. Those who have paid the ultimate sacrifice. 24 Men lost, memories not.
~CK, 22 Sept 10
I look at Darby's picture every day and never forget my boy DeFran.
~JP, 22 Sept 10
RIP to the crew! And love to their loved ones
~LT, 20 Sept 10
RIP Josh and crew grateful to at least have met you!!
~JM, 20 Sept 10
Amn Smith was one of my students at the TRS when I was going thru instructor upgrade. Great kid and so young at the time. The ultimate sacrifice my friend. God Bless those that serve.
~JB, 08 Sept 10
Went to Saudi with Defran on his last trip there before he went up to Elmendorf. I'll never forget talking to him about Alaska and telling him that "he'd love it up there"....
~JC, 08 Sept 10
I remember going to a few ball games with DW and a few of the other ASTs...good times at the stadium and then in Bricktown...They're all still sorely missed...
~CL, 08 Sept 10
CDMT was my first supervisor at the 963d, great dude, knew quite a few of those guys, RIP bros.
~BN, 09 Sept 10
He was a CDMT instructor and knew his stuff well. I was flying a mission over Florida that day when we got the news...RIP guys
~EM, 09 Sept 10
Josh Weter (CDMT) was a dear friend of mine. Several years ago I created a memorial webpage as a tribute to all those who perished in the accident.
~DB, 09 Sept 10
I'll never forget that day, I was in Saudi, sitting on a bus outside of the admin building on Eskon, getting ready to head out to the jet, when they told us what happend. Said we didn't have to fly that day if we didn't want to, but we all knew we needed to for them. They will never be forgotten!
~SK, 10 Sept 10
I was flying that day, we were doing a spouse flight when it cam eover the radio. I still have Darby P rrin's painting hanging over my mantel. Family always in our prayers
~TA, 20 Sept 10
Very hard to belive that was 15 years ago, always in our prayers........
~MS, 15 Sept 10
Hard to believe that was 15 years ago...RIP Yukla
~BS, 15 Sept 10
A little tribute true and tender. Just to show that we remember. Time may pass and fade away but memories of you will always stay. Miss you still Josh!
~JW, 22 Sept 09
Think of the ones we lost all the time. I lost two friends, Robert "Cowboy" Long and Carlos A. I pray for all the families and friends of those we lost.
~KDH, 30 May 09
Dave, you are a great man with an outstanding sense of humor. We all miss your presense. We had a lot of good times buddy
~PL, 25 Mar 09
I was a Master Corporal teaching at the AWC&Cs controller school in North Bay and looking forward to a Tinker posting when I heard about the news. I will greatly miss Dave Pitcher, a close friend and colleague. My thoughts go out to everyone lost and who lost that day.
~DG, 25 Mar 09
We were flying off the Florida coast when we got the news.....it was a long drive back to Tinker. I ended up PCS'ing to Elmendorf to replace one of the two FE's lost in the crash. I was on the static crew for the one year memorial of the crash....wasn't a good day. May God be with the families of those who gave all!
~BG, 23 Mar 09
I believe that everyone who has ever flown in AWACS should visit the crashsite. It is not only sobering but also a realization of how fragile our lives are and how strong we should keep our friendships. Those 24 heroes should never leave our minds each and every day.
~DJ, 19 Mar 09
There are probably thousands more memories, thoughts and prayers waiting to be posted. I will forever miss my friends and think of the 24 for the rest of my life.
Below you will find an excerpt of the transmission, photos of the 24 crewmembers and links to websites throughout the internet related to Yukla 27.
0745:29 RDO-TWR: Yukla two seven heavy, the wind three one zero at one one, cleared for takeoff Runway five. Traffic is a C-130 three miles north of Elmendorf northwest-bound, climbing out of two thousand.0745:3 CAM: [light switches]0745:39 AC?: In sight.0745:41 RDO-CP: And Yukla two seven heavy cleared for takeoff, traffic in sight.
0745:44 CP: Cleared for takeoff, crew.
0745:45 FE: *check complete.
0745:45 CAM: [Engines spool up]
0745:47 AC: Engineer, set takeoff power.
0745:49 CAM: [Engines spool up]
0746:09 CP: Eighty knots, copilot's aircraft.
0746:11 AC: Your airplane.
0746:20 AC: V 1 .
0746:28 AC: Rotate.
0746:28 CP: All the birds.
0746:31 FE: Lotta birds here.
0746:33 AC: # we took one.
0746:36 CP: What do I got?
0746:37 FE?: We took two of 'em.
0746:37 AC: We got two motors.
0746:37 FE: Flight start.
0746:38 CP: Roger that.
0746:40 AC: Take me to override.
0746:41 CP: Go to override on, on the ...
0746:43 RDO-CP: Elmendorf tower, Yukla two seven heavy has an emergency. Lost ah number two engine, we've taken some birds.
0746:44 St5: You're in override.
0746:4 St5: There's the rudder.
0746:46 FE: Got it.
0746:47 St5: You're in override.
0746:48 AC: Thank you.
0746:49 FE: Starting dump fuel.
0746:51 AC: Start dumping.
0746:52 RDO-TWR: Yukla two seven heavy, roger. Say intentions.
0746:55 CAM: [Stick shaker activates, continues until impact]
0746:56 RDO-CP: Yukla zero two heavy's coming back around for an emergency return.
0746:58 CP: Lower the nose, lower the nose, lower the nose.
0747:00 RDO-TWR: Two seven heavy, roger.
0747:00 AC: Goin' down.
0747:02 CP?: Oh my God.
0747:02 AC: Oh #.
0747:04 CP: OK, give it all you got, give it all you got.
0747:06 RDO-CP: Two seven heavy, emergency.
0747:09 RDO-W1: Roll the crash, roll the crash.
0747:10 CAM: [PA tone]
0747:11 CP: Crash (landing)
0747:11 AC: We're goin' in.
0747:11 AC: We're going down.
With all the preparation, what parents would even consider a
possible loss, especially since all the doctors and nurses stated, that “all is
well,” “she’s growing on pace?” It
definitely didn’t cross our minds.
Then that one fateful Thursday morning in March brought forth a
different set of events. Victoria
was not moving like she normally does after breakfast and the stomach seemed a
bit low. One hour after the call
to Labor and Delivery, we were told that we lost her, she was without a beating
heart, “I’m sorry, she’s gone.”
“No, this can’t be!” 13.5
hours later, Baby Victoria was delivered in the minutes past midnight and for
four amazing hours, we held her. I
sit here at this computer, often scanning down to look at the framed photo of
her on this desk of mine and for two months considered and pondered a way to
finally voice this to the rest of the world. Here we are. 
